Pissed Off

So apparently none of the three dates I asked about are available. Though remember they were when we started this whole fiasco 3 weeks ago. But she says the following weekend is.

But I think I'm done with Hubbard Park Lodge. The staff is clearly incompetent at best or homophobic at worst. This whole situation has just totally bummed me out. I can't believe I have gone from being so incredibly excited about it to absolutely let down in just 2 weeks. And I keep searching for another option but there are none I can find that I both like and we can afford and is the right size.

And when I think of all the time I've wasted on this the last 3 weeks. And the reality that in that time other places have become booked, it just pisses me off.

I know the only important part is supposed to be the meaning of the commitment ceremony, not the what, where, when, and how. But whatever. In some respects I'm a total girl and I've been thinking about what I would want if I were ever going to do this for years. And what I've always envisioned is just not going to happen.

Please no comments meant to cheer me up or telling me there is something else out there for us if we just take the time to find it. I'm pissed off. I think I have a right to be pissed off. And such comments will just piss me off more.

ETA:Catie, who is much calmer about these things than I am, is going to meet with the coordinator tomorrow, hopefully, and try to get a read on her, a better idea of the situation, and then decide for us if we are going to give up on this joint or not. Because I am neither calm nor rational when something is upsetting me.